A Day of Mixed Emotions

This morning I went for a long walk and I had sooooo many things running through my head about what I am doing, not just the program but the kidney transplant, work, my daughter, my husband, my sister who is currently in the Solomon Islands serving with the Police and almost anything else that decided to mix my emotions so here is what went on:-
The Program: Can I do this, as Bob the Builder would say YES YOU CAN mmmm that was easily solved.
The Kidney Transplant: What if I'm rejected as well I think that would just be aweful how would I handle it, right now i have to just move on with the tests and deal with whatever happens.
Work: This is a toughie I really just do not enjoy it at the moment but I have to keep trucking on as it is very well paid and as my gorgeous hubby may be off work for over 3 months when he has his transplant we need the money and it is flexible.
Daughter: She is growing up so quickly and I really hate the thought that soon we will get the ATTITUDE so I just have to focus on being a good mum and guiding her in the right direction.
Husband: He has been so grumpy and short lately I know he is getting worse and it scares me so I just have to keep that smile on my face be nice even when I feel like telling him to sort his shit
out, and move on.
Sister: She is gorgeous and I just worry for her safety and wish she was back here having her coffee with me while we yak about anything and everything.
So there it is I conquered all that in 90 mins I'm a bloody genius.
Roll on tomorrow LOL.